I never thought birth would be easy: a poem

 Power of Mum Hypnobirthing: after my first birth

Power of Mum Hypnobirthing: after my first birth

I never thought birth would be easy

But I thought it would probably be fine;

 

I never thought birth would be easy

But I never thought I'd hear the line:

 

"GET DESPERATE!" shouted at me

after 42 hours in labour

and two hours of “pushing"

and the cannula spurting out

blood on the pillow

from my hand as I started to cry.

 

I never thought birth would be easy,

And I tried my best to be “good”

 

but I had no control,

I was lost in my pain 

I was scared and then I heard the line:

 

“FAILURE TO PROGRESS- 

she’s tried her best -

first time mum, hardly surprising…”

 

I wanted to feel angry, but I just felt stupid

and small, and lost - demoralising!

Words - they shouldn’t mean much, 

but “GET DESPERATE” and “FAILURE”

should never be shouted

at mums who try their best

but feel choice-less

who are feeling the fear

like every word is doubted

like every sensation is wrong

like their confidence is gone.

 

I never thought birth would be easy,

I wish I had known it could be divine.